Time for A New Chapter

Well as of 11:30am on Friday I was officially done with my undergraduate work at Johnson. It was a very emotional week especially Thursday and Friday having to say bye to my Tennessee family that has been my rock for the last 3 1/2 years and saying goodbye to my 6th grade students who I already miss so much! I did give my students my email address and have already heard from a couple of them and I am already planning a visit or two as long money allows.

I was a lot more upset leaving Knoxville then I thought I would be. For 4 1/2 years I always said I couldn't wait to be done and I couldn't wait to get the heck out of that town but I think I'm going to miss it more than I ever realized. In the last few months I have felt like many of my closest friendships were falling apart and I think it is mostly because life is just so busy for everyone but it still makes me really sad. I'm hoping that after the holidays I will be able to reconnect with these people and can work on rebuilding these relationships.

I have been back in Indiana for literally 24 hours and I am already sick of the cold and the snow. :) These next two weeks are going to be crazy trying to do the holiday stuff with my family and try to get things moved in at Tori's but I can't wait for the first of the year when I am there full time and starting to figure out what I'm doing. I think in the last 24 hours I have had 10 people at least ask me what I'm going to do now with the rest of my life. Part of me wants to be snotty and tell them that if I knew I wouldn't be staying with my aunt and uncle and moving in with a family because I can't afford to live on my own. It is so frustrating because a part of me feels like a failure because I have a college degree and I'm having to still be so dependent on other people. I don't need people to keep reminding me of this.

Right now I'm trying to remember that I need to just keep praying and that things will happen in God's timing. There is a reason that I'm back in Indiana, I'm just still waiting to find it. Until then, I just keep praying and know that things will all be ok.